36 (14)Once I was summoned
to the judgement [seat] of God. I stood alone before the Lord. Jesus appeared
such as we know Him during HIs Passion. After a moment, His wounds disappeared
except for five, those in His hands, His feet and HIs side. Suddenly I saw the
complete condition of my soul as God sees it. I could clearly see all that is
displeasing to God. I did not know that even the smallest transgressions will
have to be accounted for. What a moment! Who can describe it? To stand before
the Thrice-Holy God! Jesus asked me, Who are you? I answered, “I am Your
servant, Lord.” You are guilty of one day of fire in purgatory. I wanted
to throw myself immediately into the flames of purgatory, but Jesus stopped me
and said, Which do you prefer, suffer now for one day in purgatory or for a
short while on earth? I replied, “Jesus, I want to suffer in purgatory, and
I want to suffer also the greatest pains on earth, even if it were until the
end of the world.” (August 1, 1925, Notebook 1, Divine Mercy in my Soul: The
Diary of the Servant of God Sister M. Faustina Kowalska [Stockbridge,
Mass.: Marian Press, 1987], 19)
